Can you say "Loser"?

This morning, one of the parents at the day care center where I've been filling in mentioned to a teacher, and to the director, that s/he had seen me drag a child by the arm. Which I did. But not far. A couple of feet. He'd done a "drop" on me when I was trying to get him from one place to another.

I shouldn't have done it, but it's not like I'd received any specific instructions about it. But of course, I know better. And now, they won't be using me for the next two weeks. It's been great working with me, and blah, blah, blah, but because I was an untrained temp, they're just going to make do without me, rather than expose the university to the risk of a lawsuit.

I feel like such a complete idiot. In another place, I would have used a different word than "complete," but I don't like cussing on my blog. Not only an idiot. A failure. I liked the work. The pay was crap, and it wasn't a career move. But it was money coming in, and at least I was doing SOMETHING. And now I'm not even doing that.

This is an exercise in self-honesty. I was not going to write anything about this. It's so *&()$&* embarassing and stupid. But what was I going to do? Pretend I don't have time to read and comment on blogs, when I have nothing but time? Again?