Rough Day
My therapist told me, after the Wellbutrin started working, that I might occasionally have eruptions of depressive episodes. Well, one hit last night. I have no idea what the trigger might have been. Usually, they have a trigger, and I can identify it. But this time, I'm at a loss. Except for maybe being overwhelmed.
The movie The Incredibles was just awesome. I loved it. I will buy it when it comes out on DVD, and I may go see it again in a theatre, just because. It was that good. I don't know how the Spongebob movie will compare...probably not well.
The movie The Incredibles was just awesome. I loved it. I will buy it when it comes out on DVD, and I may go see it again in a theatre, just because. It was that good. I don't know how the Spongebob movie will compare...probably not well.
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Sorry, Ann. That Wellbutrin is expensive, and it damn well better work better than that :( The docs never told me about relapses.
Can't wait to see The Incredibles. I almost took myself to see it Friday night, but instead ended up looking at somebody's antique washing machine collection, which you probably already know if you've read my blog. I should have had an "relapse episode" right then and there.
... And there I go talking about myself again. Hope you get plenty of sleep tonight to face the new, exciting, challenging, exhausting week. Love, Phoebe
Hope it gets better.
It is better. I had an inspiration that what I needed was some human contact. So DH and little boy and I laid in our bed and cuddled and wrestled and talked and it helped just enormously.
Wellbutrin is expensive, but it has a generic equivalent, even in the SR formula (though not XR). I just paid a whopping $20 for a three month supply.
And here's another thing. I walked through our family room...a disaster area, because it's full of toys and paper scraps and desperately wants vacuuming. Last night, and this morning, the condition of the room made me feel suicidal. Now, it's just "lived in." The difference in how I feel is astounding.
I spent the last 20 minutes re-reading www.despair.com and had some really good laughs. One in particular, Idiocy made me think of the recent election: "Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large groups." Belly laughs are good.
Nanna
I think you are doing great under the circumstances. A new job and kids is just horrifically challenging. I have yet to get anything done this last month. I am sure that you will get the hang of things and feel much better once you have a new routine. Plus daylight saving sucks!!!
BTW
Since my pursuit of afterlife excellence has now been snuffed out, I have redefined my nature of cleanliness. I am fond of making lists that I never do. I did find this site to be excellent for moms who just can't face the day and keep a clean house ( ok so every woman in america)
http://www.motivatedmoms.com/
http://www.motivatedmoms.com/2004_Sample_Page.pdf
you basically buy a 7 dollar calender and it has about 20 minutes worth of jobs a day. I have my own similar system but I am thinking of springing for the calender because you know how we Mo's love todo lists and 20 minutes is about all I have everyday.
Here is how I cope with the day and try to not sink into tears over my house
15 minute blitz of the house daily this entails picking up ( not cleaning) the living room, kitchen, and bathroom.
Then I wipe out bathroom sink and load the dishwasher and start 1 batch of laundry.
In the morning I unload the dishwasher, throw said batch of laundry in the drier and vacuum the living room floor.
AFter work I put away the one batch of laundry and do dinner.
thats it. On the thursday night I make everyone clean or they don't get to go out for the weekend ( now granted it is me chet and a baby but I am not sitting in a dirty house all weekend) on sunday night I make everyone clean again.. not fancy clean mind you but just plain simple one hour stuff. I can keep my sanity if my house it is midway between clean/cluttered vs pig stie..
Take care and just stay calm and cut yourself lots of slack. you have experienced enough guilt to last a lifetime. Now is the time to just accept that you are going to be great at this new job, while being a great mom and a awesome woman. Its just the nature of dragging our asses out of bed and getting things done as best we can right?? The rest just has to fall by the wayside.
CJ
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